Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

Pretty damn interesting. Very impressive that Arab financed TV in Dubai would allow this to air. Gives me faith in both journalism & possibly the intelligence of at least some people in acknowledging certain truths in the world. (in regards to jews)

If i tagged you I thought you would find it interesting--no matter what side/view you're on.

For those who would like to say it's biased--this is an ARAB women, speaking on an ARAB station, not done through the United States media nor any media that one might assume is biased towards jews (it's owned by an arab station keep that in mind, which is incredibly awesome & show's the progress of acknowledgement towards certain things for allowing this to be aired) Let's see how it's biased now???


**and just to clarify to people or a certain few people who might say she's biased because she's an arab american-- she was actually born in syria & born to a sunni muslim family. She's only been in the U.S. since 1989**

This is NOT meant to be a hate attack it's just meant to show you 1. that there are arabs who understand reality and 2. That I'm impressed with an arab owned station for allowing this kind of freedom to be aired.

http://switch3.castup.net/cunet/gm.asp?ai=214&ar=1050wmv&ak=

If you have a difference of opinion that's fine but please state it as an educated person. Ignorance & hate will not be toleratedd. =) thanks

& i'm hung over so i'm going back to sleep.. <3 Just had to share this.

I live each day to the fullest. No more, no less. I'm not perfect --nor do I try to be. I try to live an honest, worthwhile and productive life. If there is one thing in the world I can not tolerate it's people with closed minds, people who can not look at things from a different perspective.

Granted we all have our own perspectives most of us are able to look at it separately if someone points us in a different direction, it doesn't mean we have to agree with a different perspective it just means that one can at least appreciate it. The beauty of human beings is that we all have the distinct ability to think with our own minds, so why don't more people do that? Why do people constantly depend on one another for justifications in actions and in thought.

I can not stand affirmative action because every single culture in america has suffered, not just one or two individual races or ethnicities. Not all "white" people are as privileged as other races may like to think. Just because the color of my skin is white doesn't mean my heritage or my culture is. It also doesn't mean I don't understand nor have I been left out of sufferage. One word: Holocaust? So tell me again, white people don't understand what suffering is?

America exists because white people were suffering persecution, they escaped for a better more equal life.

I can not stand that there is a need for a "womens" month, black history month, a jewish month, latino month, whatever. we are all one people why can't all history be taught to all people all the time?

It seems that in order to make the world a more equal place inequality is constantly being instigated. Why is this?

Why is it so hard for the world to achieve peace? Peace shouldn't be such a hard, chaotic, stressful thing in our lives, peace should just be peace. We should all be able to coexist and enjoy one another without prejudices, judgments, and racism. We all after all are one world, one love, one people .

All I want is for everyone to be equal in my life time, and all I know is that that is never going to happen.

just writing

any input?

I wrote it in like 5 minutes.

not really the best.

but very representative of how I'm currently feeling


You see me as you want to see me.
You judge me as you want to judge me.
You look at me the way the world looks at me,
Not bothering to see the real me.
You hate me because it’s easier than for you to love me.
The world is full of people like you.
Predictable, boring, and fake.
It’s easier to pretend, then to admit you hate.
In a world where it’s easier to lie
Than to be completely true.
In a world where it’s easier to lie,
than to be true, I can’t help not wanting
to be anything like you.
I feel like the lone soldier,
On the journey to hell.
You hate me for being me, I hate you
For never letting me meet the real you.
I hate you for letting me meet someone
Who isn’t close to you being true.
You don’t like me because I’m mean,
I hate you for letting me like someone
You’re not.
I’d rather be loved for being me,
Than be hated for being anything close to you.
In such a chaotic world, it’s hard to imagine that
It’s such a disastrous yet beautiful mess.
You see what you want to see, not bothering
To see the beauty of a beautiful disaster.
You dream with your eyes wide shut,
I choose to live with my eyes wide open.
The world gives you one time to live,
So live like there’s no tomorrow, fuck like
There’s no tomorrow, and do as many
Damn drugs so that you can’t seem to remember
Your yesterday.
The world is the one chance to open your eyes
And turn your dreams into a reality.
Live and learn.
Cry and laugh.
Love and hate.
Dream and Live.
Allow yourself to embrace the pain, the beauty, and
The chaos the world has to offer.

NEVER AGAIN!
TODAY WE REMEMBER THE SIX MILLION JEWS WHO WERE BRUTALLY MURDERED BY THE NAZIS IN WORLD WAR 2.

WE MUST ALL REMEMBER WHAT HATE CAN CAUSE, AND NEVER FORGET!
WE HAVE TO EDUCATE THE NEXT GENERATIONS FOR LOVE & PEACE.

THE WORLD MUST NOT BE NAIVE TO THE MASS KILLING OF PEOPLE IN AFRICA, THE THREATS FROM COUNTRIES WHO CLAIM IN PUBLIC THEY WILL WIPE OFF OTHER COUNTRIES FROM THE MAP
AND ANY CRIME AGAINST HUMANITY!

.. just writting tell me watcha think.. not the best but whateverrr itt's really meant as an outlet not to impress, or unimpress anyone out there
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

And the time goes by faster than the times at ridgemont high
When you think about the fun, you think about
Some drugs.
The drugs that make you hallucinate, the drugs
that get you high, the drugs that make you laugh,
The drugs that aren’t anything but an adrenaline rush.
There’s the high you love and the high you hate.
Reality becomes fantacy and fantacy becomes reality.
What do you do when you want your imagination to be reality
But your reality is nothing but a daydream.
In a life surrounded by living in the moment,
why are there choices that are trapped, with no
no intention of being let out.
Leaving those choices for nothing but desire.
The question of the day is in six months is
Anything going to matter?
If you answer yes than pull away, if you answer no
Than follow through.
If you don’t know, than C'est La Vie.
In a wonderful world, with beautiful disasters
And chaotic messes it’s time to live for the moment
Enjoy what life has to offer before those offers are gone.
If I say one thing, and I believe the same, but I don’t
Follow through with my actions am I a hypocrite?
Or am I smart?
Although you like to see me when I’m high, would
You be there if I was feeling low.
A chaotic world, a beautiful disaster.
So many questions, never any answers.
Living life to find some meaning
Creating meaning, to live life.
Is the satisfaction near the end,
Or is the satisfaction in the middle?
You only live once so why not live it well.
If you can’t live now, when are you expected to live.
There is no need to take stuff so seriously,
It’s only now when we just begin.
Boy today, Gone tommorow.
Friends today, Gone tommorow.
Best boys today, here tommorow.
Best friends today, Here forever.

My dad used to tell me that I know too many people, that my life style isnt the way a normal person is supposed to be living. Too many drugs, too many substances, too many people. Along with the lifestyle and along with knowing so many people that I was going to see more death then most. It's true, it's sad. But at the same time I can't help but being blessed by knowing certain people when I knew them, for having those simple memories, or those moments in which they truly effected my life.

I just can't help but feel some people take shit too damn seriously. You only live once, so why not live it up? Why have commitment at such a young age? I mean honestly people have such sticks up there asses sometimes. People are so judgemental. Why waste the time? You live once, live it, dont sit on the sidelines and watch your friends or coworkers or classmates living the life you want to live. Jealousy is such a silly emotion, why not give others a reason to be jealous. Why waste your time being jealous, why waste your time passing judgements. There are so many other and better things you could be doing withyour time.

People rarely say what they really feel, why because of consequences? True I guess it has a point, but really what do you have to lose? You're still going to be alive at the end of the day, and if not at least you know that you said what you needed to say. No regrets.

Life is full of memorable moments, both the ones we want & the ones we don't. So why not enjoy them for what they are, take them for what they are.

Take the time to relax. stop taking shit so damn seriously. you live once so live it well. Don't bitch about the little things, smile about your annoyances and laugh at your mistakes. Enjoy things for what they are, if you look to deep into things and analyze situations you wont be living. Not everything has a deeper meaning, many things do, but not always. And if you meet that simple person who you think is dull and has no character take a second glance, because i can almost gurantee they have a deeper core that is waiting to be unwraveled.

Life is too short to be judgemental and to be fake. If you don't like someone. Don't pretend to, be real with yourself and be real with others, thats all i can ask for.



keepppppppppiin it real all day every day baby <3

To live and die in l.a


oh p.s if you are fat go on a diet and then go get laid.
If you are really ugly.. umm go get a face lift and get a new face.
if you are really pretty hot and super awesome..
you are probably a good friend of mine..
hahaha

just remember kids. live life the way you want to. drug free, drug induced, whatever. live it how you want to, just dont live it with regrets.




hmm yes did any one read that haha

Back to the city of ruthless people, who sell
there soul for a little bit of sex, drugs and rock 'n roll.
People so fake they think they're real.
People so real, they wonder if they're fake.
A city with an endless supply of love, hate,
passion and mischevious souls.
A love so strong, a bind so tight,
people you hate, but a city you love.
When insane is considered sane, and being
sane means you are insane.
Coming back to a world where porsche's for 21
year olds is the norm.
In a place where there is too much money
and nothing to do.
It's a city full of people who don't know
anything outside of this world of
sex, drugs, and rock 'n roll.
A World that condems it, a city that thrives it.
If you can't get high, you will only feel low.
If you can't get drunk, you have nowhere else to go.
No where to halucinate, no place to feel a
trip, forced to feel pain, that's not how we like to roll.
Sunset strip is the place to go, other than drugs,
the only way to fix your soul is a trip down
to the music store.
Los Angeles, A large city in a world all of it's own.
The city you love to hate.
The people you love to hate.
A chaotic mess in a beautiful world.



mixed feelingso n being home from school.

Mainstream. What is so entirely wrong with things considered to be "mainstream". Honestly, It frusterates me MORE than anything else in the entire world when people stop liking a band, a good band and say it's because "they're too main stream". I'm sorry that the band is becoming popular but if its played too much for you on the radio, than turn the damn radio off. Hearing a song on the radio played 20 million times does not make the band bad, it makes them over played. Hence why I do not turn to the radio for good music, if I listen to the radio at all. I get frusterated that people are so against anything mainstream they go into sub genres of things and then turn what they think not to be mainstream, mainstream. People die there hair to be pink because they want to be original, but if they only hang out with "other original" characters who all have a different hair color what makes them not part of the mainstream? They are all dressed alike, they all have the same "original" features, so what makes them so fucking special?? Just because something is part of mainstream culture doesnt make it bad. NEWS FLASH dressing a certain way, acting a certain way doesn't change the fact most people are mainstream. And even those people that others like to make fun of, you know the ones im talking about, the people who seem to have everything together and seem "normal" well my guess is that they aren't "normal". NO ONE is the same. Everyone is in a original person it just takes an individual to recognize someones originality. People who go out of there way to seem different seem to be the most insecure if you ask me. People who try there very best to hide from anything mainstream because anything mainstream is bad, are the people who are scared at what others may think, are scared to be defined by what they like and don't like. What is so scary about just being yourself?! I don't get it. Why do people really fear so much what others have to say, and what others have to think? . Everyone is beautiful, everyone has there own uniqueness and not everyone will be able to appreciate that kind of beauty. People have to realize that it's okay not to have everyone thinking they're amazing. There are tons of people I find disgusting both personality wise and look wise but that doesn't mean that someone else doesn't find beauty in them, so who am I to pass my judgements on to them? People, probably myself included expect there friends, their family members and everyone around them to understand them well NEWS FLASH until you can completely understand yourself no one else will ever be able to completely understand you either and im pretty sure no one will ever completely be able to understand themselves. The beautiful thing about humans is there complexity, you can't take that away. You can try to understand, but there is something very beautiful about not knowing.


WOWWWWW totally just blabberng. I could go on forever but probably no one read this far or really pretty much gives a shit haha <33.

opinions anyone??

Seperated by nothing but hours and miles yet,
they couldn't be more different.
Worlds apart they are.
Living in a small town, anything
but a small town kinda girl.
Going home to the city of sins,
to the city of sex, drugs and rock 'n roll.
A sinful past, a confused soul
back in town for some good 'ole fun and
some of that rock 'n roll.
A city full of sinners with no remorse,
a city full of lovers who only feel remorse.
A place full of hypocritical traps,
a dangerous yet entoxicating place that
you hate but cant help to love.
People so deadly you're better off with a venimous snake.
A city full of people who march
to their own beat, yet somehow end up
marching the same beat.
Los angeles, the city that thrives upon
individuality yet scolds you for standing all alone.
Just a lonely girl visitng the
city that stole her soul.
The miles between us has let me find my missing soul.
Being back here makes me want to loose control.
Sex, drugs, and rock 'n roll
are the only things that can fix an L.A soul.
Ask anyone and instead of answering
they'll spin out of control, passing out
and letting the drugs fall out.
Los angeles is the city you love to hate.
I'll always want to leave, I'll always try to leave,
but I know in my heart, I'll always come back

I am not going to lieeeee i love chico!! my first class today, my teacher was like 10 or 12 minutes late and hes never late so my class just decided to leave hahahahah .. WAHOO

Basically i'm taking this journalism class and we've been watching in my opinion this incredible movie about murrow and my whole class like literally is so bored and all you hear is people talking about how boring this is blah blah blah and i'm sitting there like you have got to be kidding me. How those people are in a journalism class and don't want to watch this movie on murrow is beyond me?!! I was in such shock and disbelief, aside from the fact that he is no doubt on of my heroes and I respect the man highly, I could NOT believe that people in my class , a freaking journalism class, had no interest in learning about him. It sincerly caused me great stress thinking about the future of journalism in this country. Needless to say, i was tremendously dissapointed in the lack of peoples interest in being educated. grrawrr!!!!!!!!!!!


oh p.s mac plus ipod coming soon.

moving on the 17th for realllllll

Pictures

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First off.. read this article. amazing, sad and nothing but true this is really long but anyone with any heart should read what i have to say
http://www.danielgordis.org/Site/Site_Dispatches.asp

The other day I was at school and I overheard a girl in my class say "The israeli's just go after everyone and everything, they're such terrorists I can't wait for someone to finally get rid of them." And i wanted to die, I must have given her a look of death because she's like what? & I'm like are you FUCKING kidding me, you ignorant cunt. I just walked away I had nothing else I could say to her. I was so angry, so full of anger I should have said something better, I should have educated her but my anger was too filled & i didn't have the time to sit there and educate the uneducated.

Why is it that every other country in this world has the right to defend themselves, they are attacked and they have the right to fight back without being looked upon negatively. Every other country in the world when they think they are going to be attacked has the right to play defense and attack BEFORE they get attacked in order to prevent getting hit first. YET when israel, one of the smallest countries get attacked first and fight back they are looked on as terrorists, they are looked on as the bad guys. WHy the fuck don't they have the same right. How can so many people be so fucking ignorant? There was a cnn survery asking if they thought israel had a right to attack lebanon and fight back and the consensus was only 50% I know some of you may think 50 % is a lot but ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME it should be at least 90 percent in my opinion. When we went after Bin Ladin we had our countries full support , so why is it that americans and other countries don't believe that israeli's have the right to attack those who attacked them?? For any of you who are against israel fighting back I sincerely hope you never bring it up to me or we're done. COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY DONE. Israel is a country, a small one, but a country. In my personal opinion the jews of israel although they have no doubt had there wars, have always made an attempt to keep peace. However as years go by it has become clear to me and to every other person who is even half awake that the intent of the Arab nations is not to take israel, not to share israel, but for the destruction of the jewish people. They don't follow UN peace orders, they don't follow peace treaties, they say things and don't follow through. So why is it when israel has made every attempt at peace that israel gets shit for protecting it's own country. WHy shouldn't israel fight back, why shouldn't israel kill every fucking lebanese person who trys to attack them?/ They have every god given right to fight back just like we had every god given right to go after Bin laden. palestinians and arab nations arent after peace and yes maybe some individuals in the country want peace but as a whole, the nations .. do not want peace in my mind they are hitler and they're solely after one thing, the destruction of the jewish people and the jewish homeland.

I just don't get how so many americans and so many people are so freaking ignorant about things. How people can not support israel. I AM SORRY but the middle east mentality has and always will be an eye for an eye (yes israel included) however the biggest difference is that israel uses war as a retliation, the other arab nations give israel no other choice. Israel has given up a lot in attempt for peace but nothing has worked.

I'm not one for praying but my cousins are in israel and it's making me nervous. & as for everyone else i think that you should just pray for everyone for this unnecessary war that arab nations continuously start. & oh yeah my dad has been donating tons of money to the israeli army so if anyone wants to do that just let me kn ow i'll hook it up.

about los angeles.

So basically i've realized that although people from l.a like to say they're the same as people from other parts of the country, as I've realized through my friendship with a friend that we aren't. We're not the same we're not raised the way most people are and that's it. End of story. Growing up in l.a is like growing up in a country all of its own, for you to have a friend who hasn't gone to rehab is a bizare thing, really it is. When people tell me they haven't been to rehab the shock for me isn't when people say they have been to rehab, but the shock is when people tell me they haven't. it's taken me a while to relize most people grow up not having every single friend of theres in and out of rehab at one point in time. Yeah guys believe it or not rehab is not a normal thing, hmm shock to me? I don't know l.a is the city you love to hate. It's the only place you can go and drive down the streets and name the scenes from half of the movies and half the television shows. It's not like you're star struck though because hey, it's home but at the same time you drive down sunset and go WOW am I really growing up in a city where people turn into to see these very same streets on shows like entourage and the hills? It's surreal to stop and think about that things other people find extraordinary we deem ordinary. At times I feel like I would never want to put my kids through some of the situations I had to deal with growing up but at the same time I can not possibly imagine my kids growing up without the opportunity to go to the whisky, or the key club, or the hollywood sign or the pantages, or the chinese theatre. I mean sure I don't go to these places on a day to day basis, but they're places I grew up going to and knowin was just a 20 minute drive away. I can't imagine never going to sunset to listen to new bands or friends bands play it just doesnt seem plausable. It's the city you love to hate, what other place do you know that the beach is 20 minutes away , the snow is an hour or so away, music is 20 minutes away (not during traffic time, of course) etc. etc. I don't know . People who don't live here just DON't get it. I guess i'm going to miss it all. The city of rock n roll, the beach, the people. When you grow up in a city of overprivilaged children and arrogant adults and rock stars around the corner it's hard to not live outside that life. As much as everyone may take themselves out of certain situations they still will in no way understand normal america. It wasn't until recently that i've realized I dont have a normal idea of family, nor a normal idea of what is expected from friends and what is not.

I don't know this has gone on long enough but yeahhhh if you read enjoy & yeahh comment on the nwe pics

Despite the whole not really regretting things the past month I have been wondering if it's possible to truely regret something that once made me so happy. Was it possible the bad outwayed the good and the answer is no. Never regret anything that once made you smile. It made you smile for a reason and if anything be happy for what you had when you had it. Life is too short to take the time to waste regreting things that don't turn out how you may or may not want it to. You may lose one friend and gain another. In retrospect there is no reason to take the time to regret life or the way you spend life. If there are decisions you make that are bad and effect you negatively you still have the ability to make the best out of the situation. In life if you take the chance to turn something bad into something good than those bad decisions may almost be worth it because it may change who you are as an individual entirely. Just like hate regret takes too much time and too much energy. Why regret things you can not change, although you may wish you had chosen differently you cannot change what has already happend, you can not change the choices you have made. Life is about moments, both the ones we love and the ones we hate. Those moments are what defines our lives and since none of us our perfect after the good moments there are bound to be bad ones so just learn and grow and appreciate the fact that you have the ability to regret if you so chose and the ability to learn and live.

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It makes me sad as a person and as a jew that people today still have such a hatrid for people who are different. It sickens me that after all this country, and the people of this world has endured there are still hate crimes. Whether its because people are jewish or mexican or black it disgusts me that people still hate those they do not understand. When people joke around and say nigga or kike or "fucking mexican" even if its a joke and I myself do this shit all the time admitedly, I never really stopped to realize how painful or how hurtful it may be to someones culture & sure our society has underminded the meaning of lots of these sayings and words and they've become part of every day vocabulary but as I watch the news and see the disgraceful things people to do to my culture I stop to realize how disgusting saying certain slurs are, even as a joke. What pisses me off the most though is when people say things using those names and say its okay because they are that race or whatever yet other people cant. An example when black people call eachother niggas but its not okay for other people to say it. Fuck if you're going to toss it around casually so are people around you and no offense but it does undermind the meaning of the word. I grew up with that word being the worse word ever, you did NOT say nigger or you were as good as dead, and now i find myself and other people tossing it around casually, full of empty meaning and I find myself embaressed and disgraced that that is how our society and world has come to. If we forget our past, forget meaningful and hurtful worlds ignorance will continue to spread. The holocaust, the armenian genocide, darfur, etc etc. are not events we can forget and makeing jokes about them are not funny. You may think its okay to make a holocaust joke because you're jewish, but it's not if you do it other people will think it's okay and I don't know aboout you but i do NOT fucking find it funny to laugh about the extremination of 6 million jews plus 4 million other people. I hate to sound so serious but so often I find people saying things so lightley as though the words have no reason. As a kid you are taught sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me, fuck that words will always hurt more than stones & there is no reason for it. People need to open there eyes to the world. There will never be peace if people walk around asleep.

wow u know ur a stoner when u go with ur friend to the beach and smoke with some random guys and the guy has smoked w/ you @ the beach before hahhaha


oh yah i moved out of my moms. back in west hills .

bye bye friends list. since none of you are my friends, what's the point in allowing any of you to read my shit. ciao losers.

Eh lately I've been wondering why certain people have seemed to have entered and exited my life at certain times. I truly believe that people come into your life at a certain time for a reason and exit your life at a certain time for a reason. Despite me always seeming to go through a lot of friends because I'm never satisfied I always know how to appreciate the time I had with them. I guess it's my fault really that I go through friends and I believe it's because I have such high expectations. I expect my friends to always be honest, to not be selfish to be able to have fun but at the same time they're also able to have a decent conversation about something other than boys, (or girls) or drugs or how drunk they did or did not get. I'm at a point where partying is awesome but it's not as important to me as it once was. I'm a lot more content just hanging out w/ a group of people I appreciate then meeting so many people. I just feel like i've grown up a lot since last summer and from my friends from last summer (deffinately not all of them because i do love most of them). But I just get disgusted by how so many people in this stupid city lack any real character or personality. Everyone just seems to kinda mooch off someone elses personality and it makes things boring and it makes life predictable and life truly isnt meant to be predictable because if it was what would be the point. The reason you're supposed to enjoy life isn't because of the big house you get at the end of your journey it's supposed to be about those bumps that come in the middle of the road and how you get over them and how you've actually accomplished something, not for someone else but for yourself.
I really do expect too much from my friends I dont like insecurity in my friends,. I find it to be a weakness and too much insecurity leads me to not likeing people. I can't help it, sometimes i forget that not everyone is as confident as i am, that not everyone has the same strengths i do, that not everyone is capable of being the way i am (not that i dont have weakness' because i most certainly do). But i expect everyone to be as brutally honest as me and i expect everyone to take that kind of honesty. It's hard for me to allow people to have those weakness'. I don't forgive lies, in fact i drop people/friends if i suspect them of lying. I don't know. I just don't want any fakeness in my life. I want everoen in my life to be in my life because they want to be not because they think it will help them progress in popularity or some bullshit.


i dont know im blabbering if you read this i would like to hear what you have to say. thanks so much. time to head over to chatsworth for some lunch